Euphoria no more.

Went down to KL twice for the past two weekends for Selangor League. Team Penang got silver placing.

I didn't play my best, I tried and wanted to but I just don't know why it didn't come. It couldn't.
It's the suckiest feeling ever when you know that you've deteriorated.
From running behind the goalcage with utter confidence and scoring a goal or two to not scoring any at all even though you're a forward.
Lost count of the number of times the coaches shouted "TWO HANDS, TWO HANDS ON THE STICK!" and my miserably failed attempts at shooting. Or even tapping the ball in.

But the worst part would be assessing myself because I don't know how to get back on the right track. A little lost, a little confused, and most definitely unconfident. It has been long since I felt that surge of euphoria whenever I see the ball come into contact with the net. I long and ache for that feeling again.

PMS-ing nowadays.