WARNING: The following content may or may not contain spoilers from The Hunger Games' third book, Mockingjay. Viewer discretion is advised. :D
Peeta and I grow back together. There are still moments when he clutches the back of a chair and hangs on until the flashbacks are over. I wake screaming from nightmares of mutts and lost children. But his arms are there to comfort me. And eventually his lips. On the night I feel that thing again, the hunger that overtook me on the beach, I know this would have happened anyway. That what I need to survive is not Gale's fire, kindled with rage and hatred. I have plenty of fire myself. What I need is the dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again. And only Peeta can give me that.
So after, when he whispers, "You love me. Real or not real?"
I tell him, "Real."
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Low cost music video FTW
"And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt."
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt."
Friday, May 11, 2012
Growth is always painful in the beginning.
As I enter Form 6, I also realise that I'm entering a new phase in life. One which requires me to be independent, self-motivated, determined and all that I'm unprepared for. (They never taught us this shit in high school!) The thought of Form 6 itself is honestly scaring the shit out of me, the thought of how tough and stressful it will be is enough to cause a breakdown. Somehow, preparation for SPM was fine even though it really was crazy. But that lasted only a few months. This is going to last for the next 1.5 years, and then I'll be off to uni, and that'll be four whole years. I honestly don't remember the last time I feel so depressed. I need to get motivated. I need to get out of this circle. I need... time to adapt.
Tuesday, May 08, 2012
Saturday, April 21, 2012
FELDA Global Scholarship interview 2012
Read many people's interview experiences on their blogs and I thought that they were rather useful which is why I wanted to do the same. I think one of the most valuable things people can share with you without getting any poorer is their knowledge and experience. :)
Alrighty, one thing to keep in mind when you apply for scholarships is to be sure you check your inbox AND junk mail as often as possible. Because the ones from FELDA and Axiata were stored there. I received the e-mail about a week or so before the interview, and two days before that I received a call from FELDA confirming my attendance.
The first round of interview was held on the 19th of April at The Zon Hotel, Jalan Ampang. My session was at 1.45PM. They already held interviews on the 18th, and I think there was another session in the morning as well. There were two assessments, the first one took about 25 minutes for 38 questions, testing you on your comprehension. There were short passages in English, and you've to answer TRUE, FALSE or CANNOT TELL to the statements. The next test was about numbers and statistics, they'd ask you to calculate price index, percentages, etc. The time given was 40 minutes for 40 questions. Both tests were difficult to me.
We were split into groups of five and we had a short tea break after that with our group members. My group consisted of another Malay girl and three boys of different races. Three of them wanted to do engineering, another was an aspiring accountant, leaving me with Biotech. Then came the interview. We entered the interview room as a group and there were two interviewers, a man and a lady. The interview was conducted in English, they asked us basic questions like "Tell me more about yourself.", "Why engineering?", etc. She also asked us about the hottest news in FELDA (FELDA getting listed in the IPO), so apart from knowing yourself well, you have to be equally well informed about FELDA.
After the individual interview, we were asked to gather around the round table to prepare for a group presentation. We were given the topic "Nuclear Energy" and we were asked to discuss about the pros and cons of nuclear energy. From the discussion, they will evaluate how much of a team player you are so be sure to participate actively without domineering the session. We were given 10 minutes to prepare, write it on the whiteboard and present. The interviewers mentioned that we've done a good job as a team, and that she could see the team spirit. Thankfully my group went in second, so we could leave early after that. :)
FELDA would then inform us on whether or not we make it to the second round of interview in mid May. According to the interviewer, they would only pick 8 of the best candidates to receive the FELDA Global Scholarship Award (out of sooooo many people >.<). I'm thinking they would pick one student for each course. Basically they would send those 8 students to study A-Levels in Kolej Yayasan UEM @ Lembah Beringin, and the minimum requirement FELDA wants is 2As and 1B. From there, they would then send you to the top universities in UK. Whoosh. Alrighty, that's all I have to share for now. :)
Alrighty, one thing to keep in mind when you apply for scholarships is to be sure you check your inbox AND junk mail as often as possible. Because the ones from FELDA and Axiata were stored there. I received the e-mail about a week or so before the interview, and two days before that I received a call from FELDA confirming my attendance.
The first round of interview was held on the 19th of April at The Zon Hotel, Jalan Ampang. My session was at 1.45PM. They already held interviews on the 18th, and I think there was another session in the morning as well. There were two assessments, the first one took about 25 minutes for 38 questions, testing you on your comprehension. There were short passages in English, and you've to answer TRUE, FALSE or CANNOT TELL to the statements. The next test was about numbers and statistics, they'd ask you to calculate price index, percentages, etc. The time given was 40 minutes for 40 questions. Both tests were difficult to me.
We were split into groups of five and we had a short tea break after that with our group members. My group consisted of another Malay girl and three boys of different races. Three of them wanted to do engineering, another was an aspiring accountant, leaving me with Biotech. Then came the interview. We entered the interview room as a group and there were two interviewers, a man and a lady. The interview was conducted in English, they asked us basic questions like "Tell me more about yourself.", "Why engineering?", etc. She also asked us about the hottest news in FELDA (FELDA getting listed in the IPO), so apart from knowing yourself well, you have to be equally well informed about FELDA.
After the individual interview, we were asked to gather around the round table to prepare for a group presentation. We were given the topic "Nuclear Energy" and we were asked to discuss about the pros and cons of nuclear energy. From the discussion, they will evaluate how much of a team player you are so be sure to participate actively without domineering the session. We were given 10 minutes to prepare, write it on the whiteboard and present. The interviewers mentioned that we've done a good job as a team, and that she could see the team spirit. Thankfully my group went in second, so we could leave early after that. :)
FELDA would then inform us on whether or not we make it to the second round of interview in mid May. According to the interviewer, they would only pick 8 of the best candidates to receive the FELDA Global Scholarship Award (out of sooooo many people >.<). I'm thinking they would pick one student for each course. Basically they would send those 8 students to study A-Levels in Kolej Yayasan UEM @ Lembah Beringin, and the minimum requirement FELDA wants is 2As and 1B. From there, they would then send you to the top universities in UK. Whoosh. Alrighty, that's all I have to share for now. :)
Thursday, March 29, 2012
The present really is a gift. :/
Never felt so worried. Never felt so afraid. Never felt so uncertain of what the future may bring. Never felt so hopeless. Never felt so lost. :(
Friday, March 23, 2012
:)
Saw my Moral teacher at the night market just now. She said my batch was the best, and that I'm a good student. HAHAHAHAHA, I might have trouble sleeping tonight. :P
Even though she always goes on and on about the same topic and that frustrates us, she's a nice teacher. Pretty amusing too, actually.
There was once the recess bell rang and our class exclaimed, "Teacher, recess!"
-> You see, we're growing children, so we're always hungry. One of the most frequently asked questions in our class apart from "Where is the toilet keyyyyy?!" was "What time is recess?" In fact, we even knew the different times for recess by heart. Which is why we always get so excited when the recess bell rings.
Alright, back to the story. So there we were, with excitement written all over our faces, waiting to be let out of the classroom. And my Moral teacher said...
"I AM THE BELL." - Ms. Lim
LOLOLOL. Epic moment.
So when I saw her, I was reminded that I didn't personally thank her for being patient and understanding when I had to redo my entire Moral folio (somebody stole it right after I completed it, pfft). And for all those times I interrogated her about why can't I use this nilai instead of that nilai.
I know, I know. Pendidikan Moral is a stupid subject and I would definitely agree.
But sometimes, you forget to thank certain people for the things they've done for you. So my conscience tells me that I would not be getting any sleep tonight (not because Ms. Lim said I was a good student) until I openly acknowledge and thank her for all that she has done for me. Thank you, Ms. Lim. :)
Even though she always goes on and on about the same topic and that frustrates us, she's a nice teacher. Pretty amusing too, actually.
There was once the recess bell rang and our class exclaimed, "Teacher, recess!"
-> You see, we're growing children, so we're always hungry. One of the most frequently asked questions in our class apart from "Where is the toilet keyyyyy?!" was "What time is recess?" In fact, we even knew the different times for recess by heart. Which is why we always get so excited when the recess bell rings.
Alright, back to the story. So there we were, with excitement written all over our faces, waiting to be let out of the classroom. And my Moral teacher said...
LOLOLOL. Epic moment.
So when I saw her, I was reminded that I didn't personally thank her for being patient and understanding when I had to redo my entire Moral folio (somebody stole it right after I completed it, pfft). And for all those times I interrogated her about why can't I use this nilai instead of that nilai.
I know, I know. Pendidikan Moral is a stupid subject and I would definitely agree.
But sometimes, you forget to thank certain people for the things they've done for you. So my conscience tells me that I would not be getting any sleep tonight (not because Ms. Lim said I was a good student) until I openly acknowledge and thank her for all that she has done for me. Thank you, Ms. Lim. :)
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